My blue-eyed cowboy and I read the bible and a devotional every morning…yes we read aloud to each other and it is lovely because then we can share thoughts that arise from the readings that day,
or the following week,
or based on what we’ve read in the news,
or ideas we’ve had.
This all leads to some interesting conversations both at home and with friends whom I visit from time to time. Consequently I am never at a loss for something new to discuss.
For the past month I have been thinking about how I look at my life on earth, this life on earth. I question my faith, something as homeschoolers we naturally do, the asking of questions that is.
Questions help us deepen our beliefs, religious and secular.
Questions help us find our purpose.
Questions will lead us to the desire to make a contribution to the world we live in.
How do I walk on this earth?
How does my transitory life (and everyone else’s because none of us lives forever) make sense?
How do I deal with the sorrow, tragedy and joy that keep me company on my journey?
How does said tragedy, sickness, disappointment, ambition, success, love, joy, fear, loss of job and financial security (and heaps more too numerous to list) find a place:
First in my walk with God on earth?
And Second with my Father in heaven for eternity?
Eternity is the hardest part to get my mind around. My children loved the line in math with the arrow at one end that denoted an infinite number. There will always be a value larger or smaller than the largest or smallest number you can come up with. Mind boggling!
I am going to take a look at Eternity as best I can with my human mind.
What if the room I’m sitting in right now represents Eternity and my life is less than a dust mote in the forever expanse?
Does what happens to me during my dust mote span of life amount to much in the scheme of things eternal?
No!
But it amounts to a lot to ME.
And to GOD.
Somehow I have to get through this blink of a moment on earth in order to spend the rest of my life, my eternal life, in heaven. How do I do that? I have to focus on heaven. I have to put everything that happens to me, good and bad, into this perspective of eternity.
Undoubtedly while I am living this speck of a life the boulders, the ruts, the valleys and mountaintops are massive, heart breaking and exhilarating.
Also while I am living this speck of a life I am unique in God’s eyes (God sent His Son to save me and prove His love for His creation) and He is with me, my life is important to me AND to God, and He understands something I don’t
…that there is much, much, much, much more after my dust mote of a life.
Why do I worry? Why do I grieve, Why am I jealous, murderous, charitable? Why am I so deliciously human?
These are very big questions which I don’t understand but I do know this:
My trials and tribulations bring me strength, experience, compassion, wisdom, grace, understanding, love, joy, peace and all the fruits.
When I am looking to Eternity, heavenward,
when I am living in the moment, savouring my food, my tears, my joys, then my ATTITUDE towards my life here changes.
When I remember that God created the world for me to enjoy…a blip of a gift to make earth a good place for me to sojourn… I try to look beyond the more challenging parts of my life in order to experience, with God’s loving arms entwining me, today and all it brings.
Life will be over soon and I’ll be on my way to my Forever World, the one I’m focused on.
Once there I will be Unique in that I have had the Earth Experience.
None of the other heavenly bodies have, except Christ. And that, my friends brings me to the Imago Dei doesn’t it?
I am created in God’s image and
Jesus and I have both walked this earth. We have a shared experience. Christ is fully qualified to help me with my walk.
This is how I look at my life where I’ve had my own share of worries and ups and downs, happiness and love. My experiences serve me. Do yours serve you?
How do you look at life?
Are you on your way to your Father’s House?
Or are you too involved with your house on earth?
Where are your sights set?
On heaven, or here on earth?
How does your life fit into Eternity?
Only God knows and He is so awesome even if He told me I wouldn’t understand!
Well hello there! My name is Vivienne McNeny.
I am an empty nester exploring life as a Boomer…you could say I'm happily Boomering along!
As a homeschooling Mum I have finally quit the job of role model and mentor to my four children. I do what I want to do, eat when I feel like it, enjoy life with my blue eyed cowboy and clean my house once a month or so whether it needs it or not!
In true English form I write about the emergence of my true identity now that I can no longer hide behind my children as their Mum.
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2014-08-05 17:06:44
Nice. I am glad we share this walk together.
2014-08-07 15:52:12
You are a dear and lovely friend. Hugs for sharing such beautiful thoughts. Smiling when I think of you.
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